i have returned

Life's been a bit hectic. For starters, my parents are leaving the country for a week if not longer. I will have to fend for myself in that time, but I'm also going to be able to indulge in more independence. For me this is an opportunity to see what my life would be like I were living alone (a goal i wish to accomplish sometime in the near future). I admit I'm worried for my parents and I feel like I'll miss them in that time, but I'll deal with it. Another thing that has become a problem is my laptop. I'm currently typing from a keyboard connected to it via USB (along with an optic mouse because using the touchpad AND the keyboard was driving me insane), this is due to water damage. i'm going to attempt some repairs on my own sometime in the future. I would use the warranty I purchased, but the retailer said it expired some time ago. I would try to renew it, but they said it was too late so my current options are to buy a new laptop (with near non-existent money i have) or self fix. My Henchman 21 costume is near complete, I'm buying some foam and tape tomorrow to make the wings, belt buckle and visor. I keep saying I'll post pics soon and I will as soon as the vest,shorts and boots are done.

looking out for all of you + new post

yea, sorry guys i've been rather swamped the past 2 or 3 days. ive been having a weird chest problem (possibly diaphragm too) and i've been trying to get in shape. i'll be all up on blogger tomorrow, commenting back on the ppl who've commented as well as checking out wat y'all been up to. im even typing sloppy, hope all is well with everyone!

I like it on...

 For those wondering, it's to raise breast cancer awareness. So now you know...

Dance Fortress 2

If this is how I'm starting my day, then today is bound to be FUCKING AWESOME

Homeless Man Under Pressure

Kinda busy today, I figured out the coding problem mentioned in one of my earlier posts. Found this creative. I'd give him a $5

Korean Baby Singing Hey Jude

Let's face it, this kid could end all sort of wars

MATLAB coders wanted

Trying to create the code for Nearest Neighbor image interpolation. Any help would be greatly appreciated.

For those willing to help here's a lowdown on what the program is supposed to do, plus a background on Nearest Neighbor. given a 2 x 2 pixel picture that looks like this:

a  b
c  d

when enlarged by a magnification of 2 is supposed to look like this

a a b b
a a b b
c c d d
c c d d

The code is supposed to go on different scales, as far as 16 if not larger. I can go as far as to write up the while loops to check the dimensions of the image but the enlarging process and adding the info to the enlarged picture has me stumped. Any help would be great

more of these problems

My current ex has been the most  unstable of them all. I still question what drove me to be with her, she doesn't have the healthiest lifestyle. Every weekend consists of binge drinking and going out (I don't partake in this. I have in the past but grew tired of it) random kids parties (a girl in her mid 20s hitting up an 18 year olds house party). Her heavy consumption of liquor is accompanied with smoking (not much of a smoker, i have done weed and stopped. I want to get a vaporizer before i do it again). She doesn't do weed, but insists on smoking cigarettes which sounds immensely contradictory. She illegally sells prescription drugs to her friends for profit. She's been incarcerated. Her taste in music is almost entirely opposite to me, we do have some small musical common ground. She lives much too far away from me that I can spend time with her. As a  result, we converse through video chatting on some occasions during the week. She constantly hangs out with her friends, she seldom makes the time to be with me. The time she does spend with me is wasted on tv shows and we hardly talk about anything. The last few times she had nothing to say to me.

The pros about this girl: she's gone as far as to hook me up with  a cell and has paid for one of my trips over. When we were together she'd be so happy and intimate (but we'd have little to talk about).

As you can see the cons far outweigh the pros and for some foolish reason I'm tempted to try and make this work. Anyone care to share some insight? Promise this is the last sobby entry, xanga is for emo @__@

The best celebration ever? Stjarnan v Fylkir

celebration

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wow, just found this on a random blog . HILARIOUS

Cameron

There's a girl I've been talking to for a while. We started talking online (we met a while back) and I was helping her out with some guy troubles. I found myself constantly talking to her, trying to make her happy because she always seemed down. Ultimately it just gets to the point where you start liking the person, feeling like you should go a step beyond just trying to make them forget about some crush. I offered to go out with her for a few drinks in the hopes of some face time and so we did. That night, she had one too many and ended up breaking down to aforementioned crush. She eventually got over it and our outing ended. I feel like I may have developed feelings for this girl even though she clearly has her mind set on someone else (even if he may not be interested in her). We still talk, about other things that make her upset other than the guy. I've gone on a few more friendly outings but I feel I should probably make my intentions clear before treading any further. What's the take on the rest of the blogging community?


The title is in relation to the character from House, whom apparently develops an attraction to broken people 

Another Day Like This

In regards to my previous post, I feel I'm not getting enough REM sleep. I fell asleep for nearly 10 hours today and I was still worn out. As a follow-up is there any way to induce it quicker? I'll probably make another lengthy entry tomorrow.

half awake- mostly dormant

worse lack of sleeping experience in a while. fell asleep while showering. takes quite a lack of sleep to pull that off. any tips for a sleepless idiot that isn't sleeping pills?

A Thousand Suns (a shit-tard review)

Original Thoughts:

What the fuck happened to Linkin Park?! These guys used to be the shit back when i was in junior high, now all their shit is snippets and intermissions. Their first single (The Catalyst) was showcased on a Medal of Honor trailer which was awesome. It also sounded like these idiots learned their lesson from that last shitty album... STILL INTERMISSIONS!!

Current Thought:

So I removed all this spammity spam spam and nearly cut the track count by half,  also pulled off lyrics from random sites:
Burning In The Skies- ok so you gave me like 5 minutes of intermission and your waiting another minute and change to actually put lyrics in your music... at least it has a faint sound of what they used to be
When They Come For Me- more like original LP, lyrically, but focusing too much on the samples and DJ, where's the guitar and bass at?
Robot Boy- .........fuck you guys
Waiting For The End- WHOA...WHOA... the emcee was never fucking Jamaican, that dude is white(half Japanese i think). At least the lyrics are nice.
Blackout- I actually liked the first 2 minutes of this song until yea... the idiotic scratching and then it just went downhill.
Wretches & Kings- Liked this when it first came out, minus the constant 'ey, ey' in the background. You know you made shit music when you have 'ey ey ey ey' monotonously or the one long 'EYYYYYYYY'. The Fonz is rolling in his imaginary grave
Iridescent- skipped
The Catalyst-Liked this, but then i noticed the autotune. At  least, they didn't use it the whole album. could use more guitar though...
The Messenger- wow... fuck this


what about you guys?

Love Song

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you








This song totally still brings tears to my eyes. Really sad, really moving. Who else agrees? 

hi (pt. 2)

last night proved to be very interesting. after more than 7 years i was reunited with a very old friend of mine. due to a much better social networking site *ahem* i was able to find her and talk to her. from what i gathered, she changed a lot. nothing like the girl i had seen on my random walks home from school. or the girl i had a crush on in kindergarten. for starters, she was already taken, a fact i was very well aware of. she had a career, not a job. the boyfriend as well. immediate thought is that this girl is living the dream, she has money, she found something she's good at and makes a living from it. she found someone, whom also has found his stable life. 

i guess disappointment settled very soon. the boyfriend, seemed distracted... i should make a step back. i've made it a habit to study people. not just at gatherings, everywhere. trains, on walks, at parks, anywhere. words don't need to describe a person, simple actions speak for themselves. appearances also send off a vibe, what they carry and whatnot. it's much easier than asking away at a person. but yea, here i am with a group of 11 people, boyfriend meeting everyone for the first time. first course of action is to sit at the bar, get a beer and sulk away. my friend, catching up with friends in this period. surely he must feel lonely or out of place, i'l try to make a conversation and make the guy feel like he's definitely wanted (i also felt out of place anyways). a small talk about beers is all i was able to get out of him (very female taste in beer, might i add. i shouldn't talk, i'm no connoisseur myself). then there was the constant checking of the phone, blatant might i add. from both of them. i had my share of texts coming at me, i just kept it under the table, these two just flat out laid their phones on the table with interval checkups. it was so difficult to get any words out of the guy, i decided to spend my efforts with the other guests and my friend.  

so much easier to talk to, i could seamlessly fit in with these people. interesting people, not wild, not out of hand (at least tonight). nights like that should happen more often. other than the guy, there was no need to analyze. just talk, converse, make something of interest with new people.

hmmmm fixed my own frustration... 

hi

hey guys. i'm new to the blogging scene, my friend hooked me up. more later!